Post-heartbreak

You expect it's going to be happily happily ever after. You think it's okay for you to quarrel or to have misunderstanding once in a while. Afterthat, you give in and say you are sorry. Then, you receive a reply and chat for awhile (good sign) but you can feel the coldness in him (bad sign!). You persuade yourself to give a little time for everything to be warmth and loving like before. Unfortunately, your messages go unreplied for days. You think there must be something wrong with your phone. Later, you see it coming...

You are chucked! At first, you will feel in disbelief. You feel kind of relieved because everything has finally cleared. You no longer need to cloud your mind thinking about him, you no longer need to stare at your phone to wait for anyone's call or messages. However, reality sets in and that makes you think of him so much. You replay and replay back the happy moments both of you have shared, then you think of the way he gives up so easily, you feel cheated, heart-broken and angry at the same time. It's wonderful how humans are able to cope with so much of emotions at the same time. The heart really has a great capasity to store stuffs. Sometimes, it's beyond what we think we can endure.

Later, you feel indifferent towards everything in life. You don't give a damn about your house chores that have mounted up, you don't groom yourself because you don't feel the need to show your best to anyone. You just wanna sleep through the whole year so you can forget about someone that has meant so much to you. There's a void in your heart that takes more than many bars of chocolate to fill up the hole to make you a functional human being again. Yes, your friends are important but sometimes when you spill out everything to them, you make yourself look foolish, you also think you make them bored.

That's when you stop talking about how you feel to your friends. You go through a period of self-analysis. You accept the truth, the reality that the relationship is dead and no matter how many times you think about him, it is not going to make any difference but it's only going to torture your soul. That's when you move on.

At last you get a grip on you life. You stop thinking about him that much. It's the time when you stop thinking about him the moment you got up from bed and the moment when you crash on your bed and sleep. You are starting to groom yourself again and go out to have a happy time with friends. Happily, you are able to hold subjects other than him. You've moved on and it's time to get crazy in Singleville!

It's a rocky road and a bumpy ride. Post-heartbreak is not easy to deal with but it's not impossible. It's the way you collect back the pisces of your heart that counts. So, why not just move on with a pride? Yeah, babeh!!!