Ne-Yo's song 'So Sick' stuck on my head the whole day and the catchy chorus made my roommate sang it with me the whole day up until now. It didn't stop there. It poisoned Alicia's mind too.
This is how I let my creative juice flow in a good way. I corrupt the whole lyric :)
Please sing it with me at least for once!!!
Gotta hide the cell phone that I have,
Cause it's mocking me,
It just keep reminding me,
All the things we do.
And it's so tempting,
To call you on the phone,
Cuz it'll make me hear your voice evermore.
(It's ridiculous)
It's been weeks since I've spoken to you.
(You ain't calling back)
Dunno why I'm feeling this, No...
(But enough, is enough)
No more crying with tissue around
I don't wanna be the one
Only wanting you.
I am so sick of love song,
So sick of you,
So tired of thinking,
Why ain't you here,
I'm so sick of love songs,
So sad and low,
Why can't I brush off the thoughts of you?
Gotta fix the broken heart that I have,
That's marked the day you left,
Because since there's no more you,
There'll always be a tomorrow,
I'll not think twice of you,
I'm moving on,
And I not be reminded you chucking me.
That's the reason I'm so sick of love song,
So sick of you,
So tired of thinking,
Why ain't you here,
I'm so sick of love songs,
So sad and low,
Why can't I brush off the thoughts of you?
So what you left?
So what you left?
Stupid dumb guy
Don't you beg me to take you back.
Or calling me again.
I'm letting go.
I'm so done with you now.
Cuz I am so sick of love song,
So sick of you,
So tired of thinking,
Why ain't you here,
I'm so sick of love songs,
So sad and low,
Why can't I brush off the thoughts of you?
Why can't I brush off the thoughts of you?
I am so sick of love song,
So sick of you,
So tired of thinking,
Why ain't you here,
I'm so sick of love songs,
So sad and low,
I can now brush off the thoughts of you!
I am so sick of love song,
So sick of you,
So tired of thinking,
Why ain't you here,
I'm so sick of love songs,
So sad and low,
Why can't I brush off the thoughts of you?
I can now brush off the thoughts of you.
I can now brush off the thoughts of you!!!
Yay, I love gals' power!!! I am SO SICK with myself singing the song now :(
Thursday 30 July 2009
Monday 27 July 2009
Fucking Hate Dancing!
I went for the audition for PTUM. When I got back from the energy-draining audition, I thought I'd totally nailed it. Unfortunately, it turned out to be the opposite. My juniors got it while I got no reply from them.
This made me question myself for the whole day. Who am I to choreograph and lead a dance troupe when I myself is not even qualified for a bigger event in UM. What am I doing all these while, choreographing when I don't even have the talent? I feel so shameful, so disappointed that I actually look up and appreciate every little things I did for my residential college.
Arul asked me to snap the thoughts out from my mind. How could I when it questions what I am trying to achieve all these while? What's my talent? Do I even have a talent for dancing or was it just passion?
Dancing is my life, it is just how I express myself...
And I so fucking hate dancing right now!!!
Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
This made me question myself for the whole day. Who am I to choreograph and lead a dance troupe when I myself is not even qualified for a bigger event in UM. What am I doing all these while, choreographing when I don't even have the talent? I feel so shameful, so disappointed that I actually look up and appreciate every little things I did for my residential college.
Arul asked me to snap the thoughts out from my mind. How could I when it questions what I am trying to achieve all these while? What's my talent? Do I even have a talent for dancing or was it just passion?
Dancing is my life, it is just how I express myself...
And I so fucking hate dancing right now!!!
Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
Saturday 25 July 2009
Love and Hate
I am glad that I am finally in tuned with what this semester has to offer.
Wow, it's unbelievable I almost took 1 month to be in touch with everything from the tip to the bottom and from the bottom to the tip, from the toilet to my room, from my room to the campus, so on and so forth. Yup, I am babbling and because of my constant babbling and weird behaviour in my room, my roommate, Mei Shu left (sob, sob). Well, it seems like the college administrator is having problem with only two people in a room so they presented us with another roomie, Helin. I think that's her name because I'm no good when it comes to remembering names. Better take this as an official opportunity to welcome her.
HEY, HELIN WELCOME TO OUR ROOM! SINCE YOU'RE PART OF THE GROUP NOW, YOU'RE REQUIRED TO SIGN THIS DOCUMENT SAYING THAT YOU'RE NOT GOING TO SNORE, YOU'RE NOT GOING TO BE A DIRTY ROOMIE AND MOST OF ALL YOU'RE GOING TO BE GOOD TO ME AND BE BAD TO PRISCILLA. Nyeh, nyeh, nyeh~~ Just kidding :P
Ah, I just love being back here with everyone eventhough I am not really a social animal. Every semester you are required to meet different lecturers with different expectations and this semester itself I have at least 3 lecturers that keep me on guard. The constant rush to class, the adrenaline pumping questions posted by most of my lecturers, the 1st and 2nd wave of assignments and the constant running here and there have been a good stimulant for these 3 weeks.
Reality checks:
1) Life in university or college is about freedom.
Yup, it certainly is. You can stay in this university for up to 6 years and if you aren't gonna graduate then you ain't gonna graduate. Take responsible for everything- ur grades, ur attendance, etc etc.
2) Your momma not gonna nag around for you to do housework.
As much as I hate doing housework, but if you don't do the cleaning on weekend, the whole residential college is going to know that you're wearing your unwashed undies, you soak your clothing in the toilet until it becomes wormy, etc etc.
3)Only cool people exist in universities.
University is just like school. You're going to get a paper qualification for being a nerd, pretty, awesome if you take life in university a bit seriously.
and the list goes on and on...
What I hate about university is that people tend to be judgmental. You went out with whathisname or whathername and you're going to get people talking, teasing and stereotyping you. You take TESL and people expect you to speak like Caucasian and become their walking and talking dictionary. When you are into literature and stuffs people assume you knowing nuts about some basic medication stuffs like taking too much of paracetamol will eventually cause renal failure. Be glad that I don't bite back, you stereotypical jerks!!!
I was also frustrated with people taking my work for their own credit. For instance, I participated in an event and was supposed to get a certificate for it but someone just took away what I deserved and wrote their freakin' name on it.
I was disappointed with the residents on my floor. Look, I can understand that the monkeys might mess up the place pretty much everyday but I can't understand why grown-ups can leave their dirty panties in the bathroom, chocolate stains from the anus at the side of the toilet bowl. How can you aim to be here in this prestigious varsity when you can't aim right!!! Get what I mean??? Okay, I'm done...
Throw away your comfort thoughts that university life is just about honeymoon years and late night partying because it is not! It's a place to grow, to prepare yourself for the world out there.
Wow, it's unbelievable I almost took 1 month to be in touch with everything from the tip to the bottom and from the bottom to the tip, from the toilet to my room, from my room to the campus, so on and so forth. Yup, I am babbling and because of my constant babbling and weird behaviour in my room, my roommate, Mei Shu left (sob, sob). Well, it seems like the college administrator is having problem with only two people in a room so they presented us with another roomie, Helin. I think that's her name because I'm no good when it comes to remembering names. Better take this as an official opportunity to welcome her.
HEY, HELIN WELCOME TO OUR ROOM! SINCE YOU'RE PART OF THE GROUP NOW, YOU'RE REQUIRED TO SIGN THIS DOCUMENT SAYING THAT YOU'RE NOT GOING TO SNORE, YOU'RE NOT GOING TO BE A DIRTY ROOMIE AND MOST OF ALL YOU'RE GOING TO BE GOOD TO ME AND BE BAD TO PRISCILLA. Nyeh, nyeh, nyeh~~ Just kidding :P
Ah, I just love being back here with everyone eventhough I am not really a social animal. Every semester you are required to meet different lecturers with different expectations and this semester itself I have at least 3 lecturers that keep me on guard. The constant rush to class, the adrenaline pumping questions posted by most of my lecturers, the 1st and 2nd wave of assignments and the constant running here and there have been a good stimulant for these 3 weeks.
Reality checks:
1) Life in university or college is about freedom.
Yup, it certainly is. You can stay in this university for up to 6 years and if you aren't gonna graduate then you ain't gonna graduate. Take responsible for everything- ur grades, ur attendance, etc etc.
2) Your momma not gonna nag around for you to do housework.
As much as I hate doing housework, but if you don't do the cleaning on weekend, the whole residential college is going to know that you're wearing your unwashed undies, you soak your clothing in the toilet until it becomes wormy, etc etc.
3)Only cool people exist in universities.
University is just like school. You're going to get a paper qualification for being a nerd, pretty, awesome if you take life in university a bit seriously.
and the list goes on and on...
What I hate about university is that people tend to be judgmental. You went out with whathisname or whathername and you're going to get people talking, teasing and stereotyping you. You take TESL and people expect you to speak like Caucasian and become their walking and talking dictionary. When you are into literature and stuffs people assume you knowing nuts about some basic medication stuffs like taking too much of paracetamol will eventually cause renal failure. Be glad that I don't bite back, you stereotypical jerks!!!
I was also frustrated with people taking my work for their own credit. For instance, I participated in an event and was supposed to get a certificate for it but someone just took away what I deserved and wrote their freakin' name on it.
I was disappointed with the residents on my floor. Look, I can understand that the monkeys might mess up the place pretty much everyday but I can't understand why grown-ups can leave their dirty panties in the bathroom, chocolate stains from the anus at the side of the toilet bowl. How can you aim to be here in this prestigious varsity when you can't aim right!!! Get what I mean??? Okay, I'm done...
Throw away your comfort thoughts that university life is just about honeymoon years and late night partying because it is not! It's a place to grow, to prepare yourself for the world out there.
Saturday 11 July 2009
Embracing The New
Hi, this is Li Chin reporting from one of the most renowned college in University of Malaya. Loyal readers of mine, forgive me for my disappearing act. I'm feeling a real shift in my life eventhough I have just survived the first week of my new semester. I have been wanting to blog again these few days but the internet connection here and the 1st wave of assignments I got from my lecturers just suck the energy out of my body. This post is going to be about me rambling about my new semester here.
I hope I have a camera here with me to snap the pinkish majestic sky in the evening, the beautiful KL city lighting up at night and so on. Yup, to be able to view what nature and KL have to offer requires me to stay high up on the building. I'm the wannabe Rapunzel living on the forth floor near the juggle where those friendly and nosy residents with tail from the green area would like to pay many visits. My room heats up like everyone else's room in the evening but it cools of quickly because high altitude place is always cooling. Aside from the surprise visit from the monkeys and the staircase I have to climb in order to reach my room, I have nothing to complain about.
As a TESLian, I have always wished that I can have an English speaking roommate to practice my speaking, to create an environment that would help me in the two areas of English- listening and speaking. This semester, I have May Shu or Mei Shu (from the business faculty) and Priscilla, my own coursemate as my fellow roommates. I have been thinking that wishes do come true but sometimes because God is too busy, our wishes might take quite some time to come true.
While I am trying to make this post sound as interesting as possible, my stomach is calling out for food. Unfortunately for us, our residential college chose not to provide any food for its residents anymore. The only restaurants that are available in walking distance are our own mamak stalls which provides us with non-lip-smacking food, the KFC, and the food stall in Mahsa College. College is charging us RM900+ for the whole semester and the food ain't that cheap in any of the premises. With my own calculation, I'll surely burn a hole in my wallet in August.
I'll stop talking about college and now I'll elaborate on my life in campus.
I am taking 19 credit hours this semester. I made a lecturer speechless in my first week to light up the class in a funny way. I think it's karma cuz I get another lecturer making the whole class speechless by using his own tactics by telling us his rigid way of marking and the waves of assignments we'll all anticipate each week. To make things bearable, we have a lecturer that is quite encouraging in Action Research and a lecturer that look up to me in helping her with the choreography in Rhythmic Gymnastic. Last but not least, we have a lecturer that will help us in our proficiencies by hook or by crook. These lecturers that I mentioned, I have never been taught by them.
Moving on to the familiar ones are Mr. Templer that has found his way to make good jokes this semester and Miss Charity, our tutor that holds ransom for the movie Titus Andronicus until we've all finished reading the original text of the play.
I will have to stop with the rambling for now. I have my 1st wave of assignment to drown my lovely weekend.
I can visualize that on the Monday itself, I'll be on the run with Arul to the libraries, the bookstore and so on just to get our hands on some limited edition books. I'm being sarcastic here if y'all are not aware.
I can even imagine the look on Pn.Jothi's face the minute she get to my essay about addiction. I am not writing about drugs, alcohol or nicotine addiction but love addiction. Wish me luck on that.
Everything is new about this semester. It really takes a lot of courage for me to embrace them because I am a girl about the same old routine. However, there's a lot of excitement about new stuffs and that the unfamiliar ground always turbo-charged me with anticipation for more adventures and for a brand new day.
I hope I have a camera here with me to snap the pinkish majestic sky in the evening, the beautiful KL city lighting up at night and so on. Yup, to be able to view what nature and KL have to offer requires me to stay high up on the building. I'm the wannabe Rapunzel living on the forth floor near the juggle where those friendly and nosy residents with tail from the green area would like to pay many visits. My room heats up like everyone else's room in the evening but it cools of quickly because high altitude place is always cooling. Aside from the surprise visit from the monkeys and the staircase I have to climb in order to reach my room, I have nothing to complain about.
As a TESLian, I have always wished that I can have an English speaking roommate to practice my speaking, to create an environment that would help me in the two areas of English- listening and speaking. This semester, I have May Shu or Mei Shu (from the business faculty) and Priscilla, my own coursemate as my fellow roommates. I have been thinking that wishes do come true but sometimes because God is too busy, our wishes might take quite some time to come true.
While I am trying to make this post sound as interesting as possible, my stomach is calling out for food. Unfortunately for us, our residential college chose not to provide any food for its residents anymore. The only restaurants that are available in walking distance are our own mamak stalls which provides us with non-lip-smacking food, the KFC, and the food stall in Mahsa College. College is charging us RM900+ for the whole semester and the food ain't that cheap in any of the premises. With my own calculation, I'll surely burn a hole in my wallet in August.
I'll stop talking about college and now I'll elaborate on my life in campus.
I am taking 19 credit hours this semester. I made a lecturer speechless in my first week to light up the class in a funny way. I think it's karma cuz I get another lecturer making the whole class speechless by using his own tactics by telling us his rigid way of marking and the waves of assignments we'll all anticipate each week. To make things bearable, we have a lecturer that is quite encouraging in Action Research and a lecturer that look up to me in helping her with the choreography in Rhythmic Gymnastic. Last but not least, we have a lecturer that will help us in our proficiencies by hook or by crook. These lecturers that I mentioned, I have never been taught by them.
Moving on to the familiar ones are Mr. Templer that has found his way to make good jokes this semester and Miss Charity, our tutor that holds ransom for the movie Titus Andronicus until we've all finished reading the original text of the play.
I will have to stop with the rambling for now. I have my 1st wave of assignment to drown my lovely weekend.
I can visualize that on the Monday itself, I'll be on the run with Arul to the libraries, the bookstore and so on just to get our hands on some limited edition books. I'm being sarcastic here if y'all are not aware.
I can even imagine the look on Pn.Jothi's face the minute she get to my essay about addiction. I am not writing about drugs, alcohol or nicotine addiction but love addiction. Wish me luck on that.
Everything is new about this semester. It really takes a lot of courage for me to embrace them because I am a girl about the same old routine. However, there's a lot of excitement about new stuffs and that the unfamiliar ground always turbo-charged me with anticipation for more adventures and for a brand new day.
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