Ah, life!!!

Sometimes I really look forward to a gathering with my former schoolmates. I will dress up nicely, paint my nails, blow my hair, etc etc just to show my friends how much I have changed.

Quite recently, I have been wondering, do I really have to look changed? Is it significant? Does the higher you climb, the more fashionable you are, the less cloth that is there to cover your petite body and the way you present yourself makes you a complete different human being? Why do we always have to compare and compete? Is that all that we see with our naked eyes? Shouldn't we delve deeper into something less materialistic? Shouldn't we see and appreciate the things around us rather than just fulfilling our own ego?

Out of the blue, I decided to be rather different than how I really was. I dress up myself simply, casually but still presentable and I decided to view things differently. I listened to my friends' conversation. They were talking about A decided not to let go of B because he is quite successful now. I was thinking, is it up to us to decide whether we are able to preserve a relationship? To me, love is simply unpredictable. You can't decide how and when you are going to begin a relationship, the challenges you are going to go through and how a relationship might end. It's out of reach...not the type of things that we can control.

Afterthat, a friend blurted out about C's ex. I thought C has finally moved on till I see the changes in her mood. They said it's hard for her to forget because they have been together for so long. But how could we measure feelings with time? Are feelings plainly addiction? The more time you spend together, the more addicted you can be? Is it? I don't think so.

Ah, life!!!