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DAYS IN COLLEGE
My waking hours are usually spent with me staring at the ceiling charging up enough energy so that my muscles will be able to move my body away from my bed. I have a busy life but I will always push aside my assignments until I have the urge to do it so ironically, I am actually not that busy. If you were to be my roommates, you will occasionally catch me daydreaming but in actual fact I am not because I am thinking of what am I going to do to have a life when I myself is life. Okay, enough with my words. See the picture above and you will figure out what I am trying to say since a picture can paint a thousand words.

THURSDAY NIGHT
I got back to my home on Thursday night. The journey back home was a great one. I spent my time gazing the stars and thinking about the things I can do with my boy ( hello Li Chin, you're single... ) in the future if I found one or if he found me. The minute I reached home, I took a nice, warm bath and unpacked my stuffs. I was lining up the assignments on my bed, making my schedule, feeling really exhausted the moment I realized I have to spend my holidays on assignments!!!

FIRST DAY OF CHINESE NEW YEAR
Like always we will wish our mom Gong Xi Fa Cai. Our smart Prosperous followed along and got a RM2 ang pow from my mom. Lucky her...she can buy herself a kilo of chicken liver!!!
Spent almost the whole day at my grandparents' house. Reaching home, I did what I like the best..SSGG. This is me trying to look seductive. Okay, I'm just trying...
Looking emo like always. Don't even need to try hard but I'm looking good with the emo look. See, I'm beautiful eventhough I am not smiling :P
My own reflection with my new dress. I do not wish to say this, so I chose to type this out. I am sometimes mesmerized by myself. TeeHeeHee:P
Arul's friend said I have the innocent look that reminded him of an Indian song. Funny lar that guy. So I'm innocent. That auntie said I look sweet. My former schoolmates said that I look more beautiful than before and I have put on weight. Chiz!!! Gave me a compliment then took it back by saying that I gained weight. I know they are jealous :P
I am pretty when I am lying down, standing up, looking emo and also when I am sticking up myself against the wall. Okay, I know y'all wana box me already. Can't help it. Sorry.

SECOND DAY OF CHINESE NEW YEAR
I accompanied my mom and my sister to the temple for prayers. I can't pray because of my menses so I took pictures and 'bai nien' with the koi fish.
Side view of myself at the passenger seat while waiting for my mom. If only I have longer eyelashes...aiseh.
This picture reminds me of what William commented on me that I have small eyes, a nose that is not sharp enough, etc etc. All bad comments... Ey William, you wana tarnish my self-confidence is it?

FIFTH DAY OF CHINESE NEW YEAR
Okay, I visited most of my former schoolmates' houses. Got five red pao toi tois, RM8 from gambling. They taught me to play 'pat ka luk' and 'ya yat tim'. I still don't really know how to play but managed to win. Aiya, just take those money since they say I win.

Tomorrow I am going to visit houses again. My former schoolmates invited me to gamble again tomorrow night. I won't be going. I have to do my assignments.

Happy Chinese NIU Year everyone! Hope y'all work like a cow and I senang-lenang :P

The Little Kid On My Face

Something was hanging on my lecturer's beard this morning and Arul just couldn't stop talking about it. It was distracting like the beard was playing yoyo or something, so I chose to stare at my book instead of looking at him.

Physical appearance has been a thing that we spent most of our time enhancing it.

Take me for instance, I simply couldn't count how many times I comb my hair in a day, how many times have I looked at the mirror and how many times have I glanced at my reflection at any windows and so on. It's not that I wanna say that I am such a beauty-concious freak cuz I am not. All I am trying to say here is that people place an utmost importance on their physical appearance.

Unfortunately, for people like me, hormones play quite a significant role in my appearance. When it is almost the time of the month, you'll see the most ugly side of me. Not only my mood goes haywire, my pimples also come popping out and worst of all I will suffer from BO for a few days. Luckily there is this invention called anti-perspirant spray or roll-on (whatever you are using) to make my armpits fresh most of the time.

I have this little pimple above my lips with puss!!! It's karma I tell you, it's karma!!! I had been teasing Fengy about his huge mega-pimple and now I got a new pimple on my face!!! I wonder when I talk, does this little pimple moves along up and down, up and down it goes? It's like a little kid jumping happily on my face above my lips except that it is not a cute kid. It's an unsightly one.

The yoyo thing on my lecturer's beard is removable but not my pimple. Unless if I poke it of course. They say poking it will cause scaring. I think I will just leave the little kid on my face for a few days. It will go off once it's bored of its playground which is my face.

Gathering...Former schoolmates...Differences...

I didn't really feel like going out today because I have yet to finish reading my Shakespearean play- King Lear act 2. Considering that tomorrow's my friend's birthday and one of my new year resolutions is to make time for my family and friends, I decided to go.

Went to Neway, sang our hearts out at the same time took our lunch there as well. Then, I went to Borders to look for Dr. Faustus and The Country Wife ( it's either I'm blind or they don't have what I'm looking for ) while 3 of them went to buy Yee Yuen's present ( Body Shop perfume ). Yada...yada...yada...yada...

That's not the point here.

For 2 years, we have been apart. Wen Ping and Ling Qiao are in UKM, Jin Hong in UTAR, Sze Zhong in MMU and Yee Yuen graduated from HELP. It took less than 2 years for me and them to be so different.

When we were singing, all they chose was Chinese songs while I chose only English songs. They sang together in Chinese while most of the time I sang all by myself for my selected English songs.

They like to shop in ROMP while I spent my time shopping in Nichii. Go to the shop and you'll know what I am talking about.

The topics that we have in our minds are different. Considering that I don't read newspaper that often, I don't really know what they are talking about. So, after every gathering with them, I feel really shallow. They talk about shares, recession - business talk. Can someone please crack my head and put in all the business info into my brain???

In my school years, I felt lonely cuz I couldn't find someone that could really click with me on the same wavelength. I'm contented they I've found a bunch of good friends in uni.

Crush My Brain...See What's Inside.

It's 25 minutes past 7. I've two assignments I have yet to begin doing it. Here I'm brewing coffee for myself at this hour. I'm wasting my time because I don't know what I should I do next. All I know is that I should stay up till it's late tonight to do one of my assignments- to finish one of them.

The topic that I got from my so-called lucky pick for my Etika Perguruan is none other than "Nilai-nilai Murni Malaysia". I was so happy yesterday when I got that as my topic. I could even jump up and down at that time but when I'm sitting down here trying to write something for assignment, I can't get anything out of my head. The topic is just too broad to begin with. I should be able to narrow it down rite??? Oh gosh, I just feel like cracking my own skull and take out my brain with my bare hands just to feel the slimy feeling, to see what's wrong with it, and just crush it on my table like any jellies!

The second assignmnet is how I acquire my 1st, 2nd and third languages. Aiyo, I don't even want to begin doing this when I can't sort out what I have to do for Etika Perguruan assignment.

Another 2 minutes I'll call up Ching Lee for a good advice how to begin doing my assignments...

I am anticipating this Chinese New Year break. I want to get back to Kuantan to rejuvenate and find the purpose in my life. Right now, I'm a wreck.

Things that I want to do back in Kuantan:
1) Go to the beach in the morning. Bask in the morning sun, feel the tiny sand under my feet, sit and be close to nature. I don't know why but I can think clearly what I should do with my life when I am by the seaside. Maybe because the fact that I'm a Piscean.

2) Visit my friends and relatives to get more angpows. More money to do crowning.

3) Cuddle with Prosperous.

4) Make sure my brother and sister do their revision.

5) On the laptop so loud so that I can SS in my room. Dance around, jump on the bed just to get scolded by my mom :) This is way too nice!

Something Dear To Me

Basically, I know how to differentiate between an expensive car and not-so-expensive ones. It's a quality that most women have because most of us are deemed materialistic by guys but truly I think we're just being a realist. Besides that, I know how to check for engine oil, clutch oil, break oil, water level, battery water level, and I know how to pump a tyre and petrol into the car. Sad to say, that's all I know about cars.

For someone who knows very little about car, admiring a car and dreaming one day to own a sleek cute car is really a big thing. Hello, I'm talking about myself here.

In the near future, when you see a beautiful brunette haired girl wearing a bug-eyes sunglasses on the road with this red Volkswagen New Beetles, turn your head and look again cuz all you'll see is me!

While in the black Volkswagen New Beetles, you'll see a big haired girl, half as beautiful as me, clad in a black outfit is Arul! I'm just joking , Arul... please please... do imagine my stone-face.
While in the black, stylish and posh black Volkswagen New Beetles, you'll see a beautiful Indian girl clad with her low-cut leopard-print dress, hair permed into sexy curls, smiling confidently is the late TESLian student sometime TESLian in UM, Arul in very high heels. Hopefully, she won't trip. She is not a gymnast, she can't walk in heels like mine.


It's 2009. 2011 is coming in a blink of an eye. Hopefully all my batchmates will achieve something. I just feel that when we were highschool students, results were our measurement of success. Now that we are in universities, success comes in many forms. Eventhough, all the stars are shining bright, lighting up your path, if you don't work hard, eventually you'll deviate from that bright path.

I've succeeded if I:
1) Have time to spend with my loving family. Keep my family united. Sister and brother go to university.
2) Teach with sincerity, patience and enthusiasm and my students repay me back with all their schoolworks done, their never-ending understanding with what I'm teaching, and they respect me.
3) Give tuition so that I can earn extra money to fund my sister and brother for their tertiery education. I'll give free tuition to those who are poor.
4) Am healthy, my family is healthy. That's the most important thing so that they can ride in my Volkswagen New Beetles.
5) Have enough money to bring them to Korea during autumn, Harbin during winter, Australia during summer and Japan during spring.

If I become a spinster, then in my 30s, I'll just do my master and then my pHD...

Dun laugh, I know y'all are laughing!!!

If heartbreak is inevitable...

I got my heart broken before. I recalled myself lying on the bed, not moving for a few hours, replaying and replaying back all those sweet and sour memories. I couldn't stop myself from thinking about what ifs. I made myself flashed back over and over again until I got tired and numbed. Still, I couldn't bring myself to get up from my bed and to stop crying. The world didn't stop for a wreck like me and I had spent the entire week or month on auto-pilot mode because I didn't want my family to think there must be something wrong with me.

Today is one of those days that make me feels like I've been chucked by someone. Yeah, minus the crying part and the void in my heart. I feel like I am the raisin drying under the scorching sun, the meat that rots in a humid weather or maybe I am the zombie searching for something to feast on. But to feast on what? Food? Guys? Omigod, I am speaking as though I am ready to get laid!

I just feel totally incapable of doing anything productive. My spoken language is full of grammatical mistakes, I can't find any suitable to express what's on my mind. Worst of all, I told Arul that I'm going to go to the washroom to release myself instead of to relief myself. Oh gosh!!! That's terrible...

In my proficiency class, we were talking about this topic about giving and volunteering, it just made me realized I hadn't done any good deeds for as long as I could recall. Yeah, I am giving grammar lesson to someone but I am always a mischievous kid so he ended up with his nails coated with my nail polish.

In my drama class, there is this versatile lecturer. His spoken language is so good till I can't detect any grammatical errors. I am all green with envy!

The sky is dark now. My food is already half-way digested. I think in a few minutes more I am off to bed.

Anna told me how boring if someone's blog just mainly talks about her studies and life. Mine is like that today because I am just too exhausted to crack a joke.

Something is wrong with my mitochondria. They help in releasing as much energy in my teenage years. I am old, too old to even be funny today.

I'll go... I'm going... bye

Every Reason To Celebrate

I don't know why but I am finding a reason to celebrate each of my passing day.

I don't want my days to be wasted on ASSignments, lectures...there's gotta be more to life. Yeah, just like Stacie Orrico's song.

I am looking for reasons to anticipate each breaking dawn.

Here are the reasons to celebrate life, Cheers!!!

JANUARY 2009
11 - Step in a puddle and splash you friend's day
12 - Feast of Fabulous Wild Men Day
13 - Make Your Dream Comes True Day (: Lih Yoong's Birthday :)
14 - Dress up your pet day
15 - National Hat Day
16 - National Nothing Day
17 - Ditch New Year Resolutions Day
18 - Winnie The Pooh Day
19 - National Popcorn Day (: Yee Yuen's Birthday :)
20 - Penguin Awareness Day (: Huei Minn's Birthday :)
21 - National Hugging Day
22 - National Blonde Brownie Day
23 - National Pie Day
24 - Beer Can Appreciation Day
25 - Opposite Day
26 - Spouse's Day
27 - Chocolate Cake Day
28 - Fun At Work Day
29 - National Cornchip Day
30 - National Inane Answering Machine Day
31 - Inspire Your Heart with Art Day

FEBRUARY 2009
01 - National Freedom Day
02 - Ground Hog Day
03 - The Day The Music Died
04 - Thank a Mailman Day
05 - National Weatherman's Day
06 - Lame Duck Day
07 - Send A Card To A Friend Day
08 - Kite Flying Day
09 - Toothache Day (: Victor's Birthday :)
10 - Umbrella Day
11 - Make A Friend Day
12 - Plum Pudding Day
13 - Blame Someone Else's Day
14 - Valentine's Day
15 - Singles Awareness Day
16 - Do A Grouch A Favour Day
17 - Random Act of Kindness Day
18 - National Battery Day
19 - National Chocolate Mint Day
20 - Love Your Pet Day
21 - Card Reading Day
22 - International World Thinking Day (: LI CHIN'S BIRTHDAY!!! :)
23 - International Dog Appreciation Day (: Gui Chan's Birthday! :)
24 - National Tortilla Chip Day
25 - Pistol Patent Day
26 - Tell a Fairy Tale Day
27 - No Brainer Day
28 - National Tooth Fairy Day

MARCH 2009
01 - National Pig Day
02 - Old Stuff Day
03 - I Want You To Be Happy Day
04 - Holy Experiment Day
05 - Multiple Personality Day
06 - Dentist's Day
07 - National Crown Roast of Pork Day
08 - Be Nasty Day
09 - Panic Day
10 - Middle Name Pride Day
11 - Worship of Tools' Day
12 - Plant A Flower Day
13 - Jewel Day
14 - White Valentine's Day
15 - Incredible Kid Day
16 - Everything You Do Is Right Day
17 - Saint Patrick's Day
18 - Goddess of Fertility Day
19 - Poultry Day
20 - International Earth Day
21 - Fragrance Day
22 - National Goof Off Day
23 - National Chip and Dip Day
24 - National Choc Covered Raisin Day
25 - Waffle Day
26 - Make Up Your Own Holiday Day
27 - National 'Joe' Day
28 - Something On A Stick Day
29 - National Mom and Pop Business Owners Day
30 - Take A Walk In The Park Day
31 - National Clam On The Half Shell Day

APRIL 2009
01 - April Fool's Day
02 - National Peanut Butter and Jelly Day
03 - Don't Go To Work Unless It's A Fun Day Day
04 - Tell A Lie Day
05 - Go For Broke Day
06 - Plan Your Epitaph Day
07 - No Housework Day
08 - Draw A Picture Of A Bird Day
09 - Name Yourself Day
10 - National Siblings Day
11 - Barbershop Quartet Day
12 - Big Wind Day
13 - Scrabble Day
14 - International Moment of Laughter Day
15 - Titanic Remembrance Day
16 - National Stress Awareness Day
17 - Blah, Blah, Blah Day
18 - Pet Owner's Independence Day
19 - National Garlic Day
20 - Volunteer's Recognition Day
21 - Kindergarten Day
22 - National Jelly Bean Day
23 - Lover's Day
24 - Pig In A Blanket Day
25 - World Penguin Day
26 - Hug An Australian Day
27 - Tell A Story Day
28 - Great Poetry Reading Day
29 - Greenery Day
30 - Hairstyle Appreciation Day

MAY 2009
01 - Loyalty Day
02 - Brothers and Sisters Day
03 - World Press Freedom Day
04 - Bird Day
05 - Oyster Day
06 - No Diet Day
07 - National Tourism Day
08 - No Socks Day
09 - Lost Sock Memorial Day
10 - Clean Up Your Room Day
11 - Twilight Zone Day
12 - Fatigue Syndrome Day
13 - Leprechaun Day
14 - Dance Like A Chicken Day
15 - National Choc Chip Day
16 - Wear Purple For Peace Day
17 - Pack Rat Day
18 - International Museum Day
19 - Boy's Club Day
20 - Pick Strawberries Day
21 - National Memo Day
22 - Buy A Musical Instrument Day
23 - International Jazz Day
24 - National Escargot Day
25 - Tap Dance Day
26 - Sally Ride Day
27 - Sunscreen Day
28 - Amnesty International Day
29 - ???
30 - Water A Flower Day
31 - World No Tobacco Day

JUNE...JULY...AUGUST...SEPTEMBER...NOVEMBER...DECEMBER...to be continued

Li Chin's Emotions

When I was clad in my small school uniform, I spent most of my childhood playing at the playground. I loved the swings, I could feel the air brushed against my delicate skin and the word freedom was just a swing away. Then again, this explains why my mood is swinging like a maniac. I loved the swings so much so that I got my finger twisted in bad shape.

When I got tired of the swings, I would sit on the see-saw. Up and down, up and down I went and sometimes I just played till I got blue-black on my butt. It was the joy that concealed everything back then.

Moved on to the slides, I loved them too. My butt sore from playing it. What I am trying to say here is that, playground is like my life. It gives me the joy but sometimes it hurts. Even though it hurts, I will just continue playing because the moment you stop trying, it's the moment you stop growing.

Profound huh? In other word, I am trying to state that my mood is like the share market. It goes up and down. Don't invest in me cuz I am unstable, unreliable and I will make you ride the emotional roller-coaster with me. If you love challenge, you can join me.

Why? Cuz you can never predict what's on my mind, what are my moves next and etc. I am difficult.

Okay, I'm rambling here but I've got a point. This morning I got up feeling confused. I dreamt that I being a guy trying to save a girl. I am not a guy, I am a girl. When we grow up, we tend to ask who are we that we don't get to know yet. So tell me, is this a dream telling me that I am going to end up liking someone of the same sex or it is revealing to me that I am so strong that sometimes I am like a man?

Although I am in a confused state of mind, I am still capable of teaching my friend grammar. He got more than 5 mistakes when he was doing my test. So, he ended up with 5 of his nails coated with my nail polish. Funny guy... Awwww, he's so cute!!! Btw, the above picture is not his nails.

Li Chin's Angst

I feel an intense hatred towards myself and everything around me. I feel that my blood is boiling, temperature is rising and I can even burst all the capillaries in my body because of all this huge pressure inside that wants to be out. I am turning into a fiery monster. I can annihilate anyone that crosses my line.

I wanted to knock down someone's door, slash him, hear him scream with agonizing pain. I want to see the blood oozes out from his body. I want him to cry sorry. Then I will punch him over and over again. Punch him till my knuckles bleed, till my knuckles ache. I want to pull his hair and hurl him to bang against the wall so hard till it cracks his skull. Lastly, I will laugh a monstrous laugh, annihilate him. Burn him, watch him crisp to death!!!!!

At the same time, I hope there's alcohol in front of me. I want that bitter tasting liquid to soothe my throat, my desire to be what I am not. The desire to be crazy, out of my mind for a little while so that I can forget about the world and just have fun with my friends. Just hoo-haa for the night cuz it's Friday.

Then again, where's my friend? Why do I seem to have time and place for everyone? Why don't they have time for me?

A sudden realization that I've been too good to everyone. A sudden realization that my life is just like an empty space. A sudden realization that I've created a vortex that sucks me in and no one seems to be finding me because no matter how hard I cry, no matter how hard I shout, I seem to be million miles away. Or I'm totally in a different dimension.

Although I am stucked in my own vortex, I want to congratulate William because OCBC has accepted him for his Industrial Training. Congratulations...can u even hear me???...

Lord Byron's and Edgar Allan Poe's poems

I've a soft spot for poems now. Perhaps I should just download all this poems and print it out so I can read it as my bed-time treat. I never like newspapers but I can never get tired of good poems, blogs, prose, etc etc. Maybe I will come to like plays too...

That's something that differentiate between me and Arul. She loves non-fictions and I am a sucker for fictions...

WHEN WE TWO PARTED by Lord Byron

HEN we two parted

In silence and tears,

Half broken-hearted

To sever for years,

Pale grew thy cheek and cold,

Colder thy kiss;

Truly that hour foretold

Sorrow to this.

The dew of the morning

Sunk chill on my brow--

It felt like the warning

Of what I feel now.

Thy vows are all broken,

And light is thy fame:

I hear thy name spoken,

And share in its shame.

They name thee before me,

A knell to mine ear;

A shudder comes o'er me--

Why wert thou so dear?

They know not I knew thee,

Who knew thee too well:

Lond, long shall I rue thee,

Too deeply to tell.

I secret we met--

I silence I grieve,

That thy heart could forget,

Thy spirit deceive.

If I should meet thee

After long years,

How should I greet thee?

With silence and tears.

A DREAM WITHIN A DREAM by Edgar Allan Poe

Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow-
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand-
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep- while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?

When I was a Child and Now

I am born a multitasker. When I was in primary school, I will line up my homework, for instance, there are homework for Maths, Science, BM and those that need to be pasted. I would do a bit of Maths, then I moved on to Science, BM and all the papers that need to be glued. My mother had always complained about how messy I was back then. It was like I was there with all those books encircling around me, kinda like I was meditating. Well, it managed to bring me to UM, so this multitasking didn't quite backfire.

Here I am, multitasking again. I am blogging. At the same time, I am eating and drinking Milo as fast as I can because there is this mosquitoes sprayer outside. Beside that, I am chatting with Anna, reading e-news and getting ready to class.

I don't know why sometimes time seems to be moving real fast and sometimes it is moving at the speed of a tortoise. However, I am quite sure that these few days, the clock is ticking fast cuz 24 hours is just not enough for me. Haiz, I don't know...it seems like when you're growing older, there are just more priorities in life.

I am struggling to get hold of everything now. Getting hold of the Shakespearean language in King Lear, getting to like to read the newspaper so I won't be like the frog under the coconut shell, memorizing the moves in my traditional Chinese dance, and I need to take care of my own well-being... there's just so much that I have to take care of and that includes playing pranks on people when I have the chance.

Unhygenic Part of Me

I think I'm a guy in a girl's body. It's unsightly to see a girl with hairy legs, hairy armpit and with unibrow. My legs' hair is growing but I don't pluck them. My armpits' hair is growing too and it's like seeing little cacti growing on my own body. My eyebrows are out of shape. I'm a hairy monster! I'm... GROSS!!! I've chapped nail polish on my nails...

That's the story about what a mess I am. Let's move on to my room. I've got 2 pails of clothing to wash! My desk is like a guy's desk. It's also inhabited with ants. Tiny little ants that would bite me if I am not aware. I have not fold my comforter yet. My pillow is on the other side of the bed and my white hippo which my mom named it as Tai Ong Pong is sleeping like a lizard.

That's about my room. Moving on to my studies. I have not looked for the books Dr.Juliana mentioned, I have not read the book Mr.Templer asked us to read, etc etc. I have finished reading Romeo and Juliet but I didn't quite enjoy it because the language is just too easy! I must read the more difficult one because the English is just too beautiful.

Today, I must not waste any of my time!
10:00 - 11:00 Pluck my legs' hair
11:00 - 11:30 Wash 1 pail of my clothing
11:30 - 12:00 Pluck my armpits' hair
12:00 - 13:00 Lunch
13:00 - 14:00 Shape my eyebrow
14:00 - 16:00 Watch a movie
16:00 - 17:30 Clean my room
17:30 - 18:00 Bath
18:00 - 19:00 Dinner
19:00 - 22:00 Revision

I am worried if I don't finish this...

My New Year Resolution

1. With classes start only at 9.30am, I will continue to be a dedicated student. I will not skip any classes this semester unless I am sick of course.

2. I will take good notes. I will have one book or one file for each of the courses I take this semester.

3. I will have my own study group because I am able to absorb stuffs that I have read like a sponge when I function in my own study group.
(Make a mental note to inform the 3A fellars about this study group)

4. All my assignments in my previous semester, I have really put my heart and soul into doing them and Mr. Bill Templer keeps a copy of it because he thinks it's great. This semester I will continue to do a great job because I thrive on As.

5. I will involve myself in one of the campus activities and in one or two residential college's activities.

6. I will budget my spending. I will go shopping twice a month because shopping always make me broke. I will try my best to wash my clothes using my own bare hands instead of using the machine so that I'll be able to save RM10 in one month.

7. With only 17 credit hours per week, I will hunt for a job so that I can breed money in my bank account. Secondly, I will be able to make myself occupied.

8. I will read newspaper everyday, CLEO every month and I will have at least 4 posts posted up in my blog per week. I will continue to speak English in my faculty to become a fluent speaker and also to prove it to our lecturers that we are good!

9. I will dress up presentably to my faculty. I will put on a bit of make up to make Miss Oh-I'm-So-Fashionable shut up.

10. I will control my temper. Ward off EmoLiChin and Li Chin the walking zombie on auto-pilot mode.

11. Will continue be loving and do more charity. I don't do one when people ask for money and chances are I will get more staring that I am a cruel bitch again.

12. Take care of my skin, my lips, my hair and my health.

13. Make more time for friends and family.



##I found this on CurryEgg's blog. Would really like to share it with y'all.##
The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, not to worry about the future, not to anticipate troubles, but to live the present moment wisely and earnestly.

Recap

This year does not begin with what I've expected. Well, this is life. If it's so damn predictable, then it will not be fun anymore. Sometimes, we need to feel more happiness, tiny bit of sadness, surprises, disappointment, all the spices of life to make us human. So, flaws are okay because humans are imperfect by nature.

Or you can call me a psychotic nuts because when life is running too smooth for me, I will tend to create havoc. For instance, my dating experience. When we were all good and lovey-dovey, I would find faults with him so that we quarrel, I would feel really really angry but I enjoy seeing messages from him coming in begging for forgiveness, blah blah blah. And you guess...at last, he was being with my friend. Serve me right! But he wasn't that good...it was not a good catch...better let the fish go than to let him die of endless torture. When I was in secondary school, I was what they named me - a player.

I need a closure, a recap, self-evaluation I will call it.

2008 had truly been a year I would remember. Why?
1) Just as I thought I will be a spinster, someone expressed liking in me. It didn't go far though.
2) I got a B for my proficiency test. Congratulations to me cuz it was and it still is a pain in the ass which is constantly reminding me I really need to buck up or I will end up failing. Failure is not an option. I refuse to give in to failure!
3) I am sick before and during the new year. My 1st time celebrating new year eve in a place packed with people. When everyone else was enjoying the new year eve, I was being a pampered girl by kinda getting angry cuz it was stuffy, smelly and noisy... did I mention dirty?
4) I got an A in one of my papers and I get a free meal :P
...it's gonna be an endless list if I am going to list out like this...let's make it more systematic.

Failure:
1) A relationship.
2) Lecturers are commenting us that we are the worst batch of TESL students.
3) My CGPA dropped 0.02.
4) I am not a good dance troope leader.
5) I have moods like disastrous weather. They should name a cyclone after me.
6) I got sick before the new year and on the new year.
7) I am too independent and I think I'm more independent than half of the guys I know which is not a good think because I tend to look down on people.
8) I can only be on the same wavelength with my bunch of friends not my roommates.

Success:
1) I put 100% into doing good assignments. Bill Templer likes it and he keeps a copy of it- the original copy.
2) I got B in proficiency test.
3) I blog... which is good for my essay writing, good for people to know what's on my mind.
4) Slightly better GPA. An A for the paper that gives me good meal to eat :P
5) Able to ask Anna to produce more movies, for my speaking and listening.
6) The most successful thing is that I have is that I have found my bunch of good friends. The fact is, I don't really have friends like this before. I found my so-called the other half bcuz she knows what is on my mind, Anna and Anna are the most bising ones, William the driver :P